realization

Im turning 26 this year and i feel like the last couple of years ive been sitting around waiting for my life to start. Well i realized tonight its already started. This is my life. What am i waiting for? 
I have no life relatively speaking. I have no friends. Ok i have friends but i never see them. And while its neither one of us's faults, i could make more of an effort. I guess im just scared. Ive had several best friends throughout the years and they have either left me standing alone or have betrayed me in some way. Or they dont see me as their equal best friend... They r my best friend but i am not their best friend. Im just a good friend that comes around every once in awhile. 
Well today is a new day. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I hope. I plan to change all that. I plan to be aggressive with my life. Be proactive. Live my life. Lets hope i dont fail myself...